Packing is always an emotional experience for me. I find myself sifting through old letters, journals and clothes that no longer fit. As I pack up our apartment here in Mumbai, I am clearing out the old to make way for the new but it is never as easy as it sounds! The waning moon is the perfect time to release that which no longer serves us and I am learning to walk the talk and fully let go.
Last year, I created a drawer in the spare room which I call my ‘101 drawer’ and it is a place where I put all the things that don’t resonate with me anymore. However, now I have to open it, sort through those things and, shock, horror, throw them away!
In the past, I have been known as a hoarder and have kept every little scrap of paper but this lifestyle forces me to clear out my clutter every couple of years! As you can imagine, I have shed many tears and gone through a box of tissues over the past few days, not to mention many cups of tea and bars of chocolate! It was all very Bridget Jones.
When I moved to Mumbai, I was full of goals. I am a woman who likes a plan and I had big plans. None of them came to fruition.
Life in India has been pretty lonely for me and I have had a lot of time to sit and think about my goals in life. I have reflected on my previous goals and tried to figure out where I went wrong. It has been a rollercoaster of a time and I have been quiet on my blog about the whole India experience. I have done a lot of personal journalling about this chapter of my life but I still don’t really know how to put it in words or whether any of this makes sense to anyone that hasn’t been through the washing machine of India. All I know is that I have changed here.
How have I changed?
I see my old life with fresh eyes. I have a new perspective. I have less tolerance for people that drain my energy and take away my power. I am more confident about who I am. My intuition is stronger than ever.
India is a fierce place and I have discovered how to stand in the fire and not get burnt out. A large part of my time here in Mumbai has been spent doing yoga with a group of Indian Aunties and, oh my goddess, those women have some serious fire! It has been good for me to be surrounded by such strong women and it has rubbed off on me. Someone recently told me that I was “opinionated” and, you know what, I am! I am glad that I have the confidence to speak up and have my own opinions. I have learnt how to stand in my corner and be proud of what is my truth and my way.
This wasn’t the blog post that I had intended to share this week but it is the one that feels right for me right now. As we move into tomorrow’s new moon, get ready for a new chapter. Release what needs to come out and say what needs to be said.
The time is now.