Twelve months ago I was working out my notice period in a job that I hadn’t found fulfilling since the day I started it. I had been doing that job for 7 years and none of my friends and family could understand why I even took it in the first place. 7 years of my life! Why did I do it for so long? I was caught in a spiral of negativity and I thought that I did not have a choice.I tried to make a career change once before but it failed. This time around I was better prepared. 2009 was intended to be, and has indeed been, a transitional period for me and a time for self-reflection. This is no longer a “career change” but an opportunity to love and serve others on this path.
I began the year with a women’s yoga and meditation retreat. One of the main messages I received during this time was my yearning for creativity and to bring colour back into my life. When I look back to the woman I was before my journey into corporate London, I was a very colourful person. My hair was bright red and I always wore colourful clothes and accessories. Over the past 7 years of working in the modern corporate environment the colour literally drained out of me and I lived in a black and white world. This was reflected in my physical appearance. My hair lost its colour, my skin was pale and drawn, and my clothes were always black. The day I finished my job I made a promise to myself to never wear a black trouser suit again! Over the last few months I have been rediscovering my femininity and it feels wonderful. My heart is starting to sing again.
This summer I took a yoga teacher training course. I have secretly wanted to be a yoga teacher ever since my first class. All my friends know that I love yoga but whenever someone used to ask me if I was planning to teach my response was always “maybe” or “one day” or “I am not good enough”. Why is it so hard to say what we really want?
Self-expression is an issue that continually arises for me and I sense that I am not alone. Please, join me on this journey as I make these offerings on this blog and manifest my heart’s desires.
“Dance like no-one is watching. Sing like no-one is listening. Love like you’ve never been hurt and live like it’s heaven on Earth” Mark Twain